Taraji P. Henson revealed during her new Facebook Watch series that she has had thoughts of suicide during the coronavirus pandemic.
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On the second episode of her talk show, Peace of Mind with Taraji, the actress revealed that she’s had her share of dark moments during the pandemic. Henson said she was unable to get out of bed for days and didn’t care about anything then started to have thoughts about ending her life. Additionally, she noted that there was a gun in her home and at any moment, she could’ve ended her life right there.
”It happened two nights in a row, I purchased a gun, not too long ago, and it’s in the safe, y’know? I started like, ‘if I could go in there right now and end it all’… cause I want it to be over like, but it’s in my head, you know?”, she said. However, Henson thought about her 26-year-old son, Marcell Johnson, and how it would the act would affect him.
“I said, ‘he’s grown, he’ll get over it.’ You know what I mean? I just didn’t care. I felt myself withdrawing. People were calling me [and] I wasn’t responding. I didn’t care.”
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At her most vulnerable, Henson told her guest, Dr. LaShonda Green, that she had a talk with one of her close friends and opened up about her thoughts in order to sort out them out.
“For me, I’m no professional, but I felt like, if I don’t say it, then it becomes a plan. What scared me was that I did it two nights in a row, and the thoughts kept coming. Now, I started to think about how — at first, it was like ‘I don’t want to be here.’ And then, I started thinking about going to get the gun, and that’s why when I woke up the next morning — I blurted it out because I felt like after a while, it was going to take over me, and it was going to become a plan because that is how strong my brain is. You know our thoughts, they’re that powerful.”
SOURCE: Hollywood Life
If you are having thoughts of suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255