Bella Hadid Regrets Getting A Nose Job At Age 14, Says She Felt Like The “Uglier Sister”
In a super honest cover story for Vogue Magazine, Bella Hadid opens up about plastic surgery, imposter syndrome, and more.
In the issue, the beautiful supermodel reveals that at 14 years old she got plastic surgery on her nose, which she now regrets: “I wish I had kept the nose of my ancestors. I think I would have grown into it.” Further, into the conversation, Bella says: “People think I fully f**ked with my face because of one picture of me as a teenager looking puffy. I’m pretty sure you don’t look the same now as you did at 13, right?” she explains. “I have never used filler. Let’s just put an end to that. I have no issue with it, but it’s not for me. Whoever thinks I’ve gotten my eyes lifted or whatever it’s called—it’s face tape! The oldest trick in the book. I’ve had this impostor syndrome where people made me feel like I didn’t deserve any of this. People always have something to say, but what I have to say is, I’ve always been misunderstood in my industry and by the people around me.”
Bella goes on to talk about living in the shadow of her older sister Gigi. “I was the uglier sister. I was the brunette. I wasn’t as cool as Gigi, not as outgoing. That’s really what people said about me. And unfortunately, when you get told things so many times, you do just believe it. I always ask myself, How did a girl with incredible insecurities, anxiety, depression, body-image issues, eating issues, who hates to be touched, who has intense social anxiety; what was I doing getting into this business? But over the years I became a good actress. I put on a very smiley face, or a very strong face. I always felt like I had something to prove. People can say anything about how I look, about how I talk, about how I act. But in seven years I never missed a job, canceled a job, was late to a job. No one can ever say that I don’t work my a** off.”
Although she’s a hardworking supermodel, she goes on to discuss her battle with depression and anxiety. She also talks about how she’s been holding up mentally while battling Lyme disease: “For three years while I was working, I would wake up every morning hysterical, in tears, alone. I wouldn’t show anybody that,” she says. “I would go to work, cry at lunch in my little green room, finish my day, go to whatever random little hotel I was in for the night, cry again, wake up in the morning, and do the same thing.”
While acknowledging that her harsh focus on her appearance has affected her as well dealing with unrealistic standards as a model in the fashion industry, she’s now putting the focus back on her own mental health amid a busy life:
“To have to wake up every morning with this brain—it’s not cute,” Hadid says. “So now everything that I do in my personal life is literally to make sure that my mental state stays above water. Fashion can make you or break you. And if it makes you, you have to make a conscious effort every day for it not to break you. There’s always a bit of grief in love.”
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