Holly Madison Was Traumatized The First Time She Had Sex With Hugh Hefner
HOLMBY HILLS, CA - MAY 6: (L to R) Playboy bunny Sheila Levell, Playboy founder Hugh Hefner and Playboy bunny Holly Madison perform a scene during the filming of a commercial for "X Games IX" at the Playboy Mansion May 6, 2003 in Holmby Hills, California. This year's X Games will take place at STAPLES Center in Los Angeles from August 14th through 18th. (Photo by Robert Mora/Getty Images)
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Holly Madison Was Traumatized The First Time She Had Sex With Hugh Hefner
Former Playboy bunny Holly Madison has been speaking out a lot lately about her time at the Playboy Mansion and she just opened up about her first time having sex with Hugh Hefner, which she labels as traumatic.
“I was wasted,” Madison, 41, said on the “Power: Hugh Hefner” podcast on Monday. “He was literally pushed on top of me. And after it happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed, and it had way more of an emotional impact on me than I thought it would.”
She added after going to the club she and a few other girls went back to the mansion.
“I wasn’t necessarily expecting to have sex that night,” she added. “I thought it would be more of a first date – even though obviously it’s not a very traditional first date. I thought it would be more the type of thing where I saw what happened, saw what was going on. If I wasn’t comfortable with it, I wouldn’t have to do anything and I could make my decision on whether I wanted to come back for date no. 2 or not.”
“I thought he was really smart, I really looked up to him, so I liked him and it wasn’t that the idea of possibly having sex with him repelled me so much – I know that’s not relatable to a lot of people because they’re like, ‘Oh, he’s an old man, gross.’”
“It was more the group aspect that was really out of my comfort zone and just the feeling of, ‘Wow, OK, that happened. Everybody knows it happened,’” she continued. “I kind of all of a sudden felt like everybody was going to know about me, and I was horrified by it.”
LAS VEGAS, NEVADA – SEPTEMBER 24: Holly Madison visits The Las Vegas Farm/Barn Buddies animal rescue/sanctuary to help raise funds for the sanctuary which has been financially hit during COVID-19 on September 24, 2020 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by Denise Truscello/WireImage)
Following the ordeal, Madison reveals that she felt like she had to move into the mansion as so many people were aware of what happened the night before.
“I felt like, ‘There’s no taking that back so I might as well get what I came for,” she said. “I felt like by moving myself in and getting what I wanted from the situation, that was demanding respect in a way. I felt like if I didn’t do that I was just going to be haunted by the experience.”
