After years of being controlled, unhappy, and feeling completely hopeless, Britney Spears is now doing everything on her own terms.
The megastar is gearing up to release her new memoir titled “The Woman in Me,” where she’ll talk about everything in her life from the good to the bad, and her very lowest moments.
In an excerpt from her new book which will be released on Oct.24, Spears finally opens up about the time she shaved her head in 2007. Speaking on that difficult moment in her life where she was under heavy scrutiny by tabloids and paparazzi, and going through a painful divorce, Spears said, “I’d been eyeballed so much growing up. I’d been looked up and down, had people telling me what they thought of my body since I was a teenager,” she writes in her much-anticipated memoir. “Shaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back,” PEOPLE quotes.
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As a result of her conversion behavior at the time, Spears was put in a court-ordered conservatorship in 2008 which granted her father and a lawyer control over her life including her personal and financial affairs. Under the conservatorship, she says she was also forbidden from keeping the new look.
“Under the conservatorship, I was made to understand that those days were now over,” she writes. “I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take.”Spears continued: “If I thought getting criticized about my body in the press was bad, it hurt even more from my own father. He repeatedly told me I looked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it.”
Speaking more about her controversial conservatorship, the 41-year-old went on to add,
“I became a robot. But not just a robot — a sort of child-robot,” she said, “I had been so infantilized that I was losing pieces of what made me feel like myself. The conservatorship stripped me of my womanhood, made me into a child. I became more of an entity than a person onstage. I had always felt music in my bones and my blood; they stole that from me.”
Spears spent years trying to battle out of her conservatorship but it wasn’t until November 12, 2021, a judge ruled that Britney was finally allowed to take full control of her OWN life and career.
Spears told PEOPLE that the reason why she’s releasing a book now is so My fans deserve to hear it directly from me,” she says, adding this is “just me owning my past, present and future.”