Selena Gomez is detailing her struggle with bipolar and depression like never before in her latest interview with Rolling Stone. The singer, who is gracing the December issue of the magazine, dives deep into some hard-hitting topics about her private life in the lead-up to the release of her documentary, “My Mind & Me,” which is available for streaming on Apple TV+ on Friday.
In her interview with RS, the former Disney Channel star admits that while she has never attempted suicide, she has often wondered whether ending her life would make the world a better place. Speaking of the deep and dark depression she’s found herself in over the years, Gomez explained, “Sometimes it was weeks I’d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath.”
Most people couldn’t make us move our Dec. cover early. @selenagomez, who drops an incredible documentary tomorrow, isn’t most people.
The superstar has wrestled with bipolar disorder, life-threatening illness & tabloid hell. She opens up about all of it: https://t.co/0dOqifpEys pic.twitter.com/Gfi9XuQsXy
— Rolling Stone (@RollingStone) November 3, 2022
“I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there.” Furthermore, the singer, who is actively taking medication for her bipolar disorder, says the drugs may ultimately prevent her from ever being able to carry her own children. While she calls it a “very big, big present thing in my life,” Gomez notes that “if I’m meant to have them, I will,” seemingly referring to perhaps taking the IVF route or adoption.
Gomez is on a promotional campaign in support of her documentary, where she opens up about her challenges with depression, bipolar, anxiety, body image issues, and how all of these things have plagued her so much, she ended up suffering a mental breakdown.
The “Hands To Myself” hitmaker, per the New York Post, may have also been struggling with a drug problem at some point, presumably caused by her bipolar disorder, but it went without saying that when Gomez commenced her Revival Tour in 2016, she was in no shape or form going to be able to pull through all of the dates.
Selena Gomez says that re-watching the harder moments in the documentary “broke [her] heart”: “I just wish I could hug that version of myself.” #AFIFEST https://t.co/c5py9n8XbS pic.twitter.com/G5d0IwgLkH
— Variety (@Variety) November 3, 2022
The tour ended up being scrapped after five dozen of concerts as Gomez was rushed to the hospital for treatment pertaining to her mental health. During this time, it’s openly revealed in her documentary that she ended up cutting ties with her mom, Mandy Teefey, who became so worried, she thought her daughter was going to die.
“We heard about her mental breakdown through TMZ. They called me and wanted to know what my daughter was doing in the hospital with a nervous breakdown,” she says in the doc. “She didn’t want anything to do with me and I was scared she was going to die.”